m e t a

conversation continued about changes you want to make

why am i so surprised?
i knew what was in the pack
what cards would come out of the deck

knew that completion was on the table
didn't know how soon

question fill me up;
how will this affect career,
relationships,
intimacy?
there are things that will no longer be possible?
is this okay?

for you seemingly so

haven't yet answered that for myself
selfish it would be to say, "no."

...

life is change
this i know to be true

...

my opinion was asked
i reserved to give a full answer
need time to truly think;
what it means to me?
what it means for you?
what it means for us?

but in reality, in my heart, in my soul
i just want what is best for you
i want you to be complete
to be whole

no matter what, if you are not happy neither am i

having to embrace the we
us
together
knowing that this is what marriage is

...

will research.
will digest.
will in the end agree.