m e t a

conversation continued about changes you want to make

why am i so surprised?
i knew what was in the pack
what cards would come out of the deck

knew that completion was on the table
didn't know how soon

question fill me up;
how will this affect career,
relationships,
intimacy?
there are things that will no longer be possible?
is this okay?

for you seemingly so

haven't yet answered that for myself
selfish it would be to say, "no."

...

life is change
this i know to be true

...

my opinion was asked
i reserved to give a full answer
need time to truly think;
what it means to me?
what it means for you?
what it means for us?

but in reality, in my heart, in my soul
i just want what is best for you
i want you to be complete
to be whole

no matter what, if you are not happy neither am i

having to embrace the we
us
together
knowing that this is what marriage is

...

will research.
will digest.
will in the end agree.

new life

it has been 1 week and 4 days since i moved from the nyc to my new home down south
i moved for many reasons
love
adventure

the next step in the loong life journey south east asian here i come maybe i will find my passion again figure out what i want to do with my life i think that i am going to try and blog everyday just write my thoughts, just whatever pops into this brain of mine i realize that i have to stay active in my own way in order to be the best not just for me but for my family i thought about grad school but alas i am an in the classroom kinda learner i wish that i could be a distance learner i would have degree after degree so in about six weeks i will be on a plane

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a failure in leadership
a failure in commitment
a failure in human compassion
a failure in word
a failure in life

i am a woman of faith
faith in what is right
faith in what is true
faith in what one says

but now it seems like has gone