growing up

one day old after turning 30
in my dad's world i am -10
he thinks that life starts at 40 which would be 0
i love that i have finally made it on the list
i feel like my life is just starting
a move in 17 days
a wedding in 197 days
kids in ??? days

i am super excited
suuuuuuper super excited

tonight begins the first of 6-8 sessions in pre-marriage counseling
first question on the board "What is Marriage?"

can't wait to see how this all goes...

so all things must change this i know
but to have the last 3 days for the last time is scary
i am now alone
no +1
no mama
no tinkerbelle
no yoddah
my house is now quiet
only the sounds of the boob tube and my space heater are heard.

in the cab on the way to the airport
the love of my life sitting to my right
my baby boy, in his new carrier on my lap, meowing just because
the new road, "less traveled", is an understatment
soon all of the rest of my worldly possessions will be packed, wrapped and driven 500+ miles
we will be on our own
on our own
miles away from family
friends
the life we knew

i am excited
scared
nervous
worried
but above all i am complete sure that this is exactly what, where, i need, want to be

this planning is kicking into high gear
7 months and counting
2 best girl's dresses down
1 to go
now onto suits...
the next big meeting feb 18-20
the first round of pre-marriage counseling
never thought about it
but am so excited to begin
must do my homework before day 1
then march 6
time for a tasting
choices choices choices
an evening of fun and possibilities

need to do:
invites
dance shoes
playlist
move