a while spent away from the safety and security of this thing we call blogging. i feel that my mind has been slowly leaking from my ears adn that i am unable to truly focus on life as it is. things are whizzing by and a blur to my naked eyes. i need some kind of release some place to express all of my fears passions and concerns with the world at large...so i end up back here inside of these infinate walls. conflict is building up and leading me to have these highs and lows that ebb and flow without warning. do i need to talk to someone? do i need to write more? what will ease these feelings of utter loneliness that are rooted in me?