in a city with millions of people how can one feel so lonley?
i have seen five movies this week...by myself.
fun and enjoyable? yes.
would i have perfered company? yes.

i think that i lack the ability to create lasting friendships with folks. it's like i move to the beat of my own drum and the world is deaf. i know that there must a friend waiting in the wings. my bestest girl friend moved with her boifriend to portland, across the country, so far away. now i must do my own thing go out by my lonesome, which is fun but it's not the same.

it's raining today and i have to debate on if i am going out, alone. the answer of course will be yes, because spending another day in this house will drive me mad, bloody mad.


on a goood note i have found an american writer who speaks to my soul, James Baldwin. the way that he weaves a tale so flawlessly that i feel that i am there satnding on that corner, sitting on the couch, flying over the ocean, he has become next to ralph ellison my favorite author.

rambling done.

so today i was told that my look was "sexy geek" by my mister.

what do you say to that?

'thanks, honey."?